So I have proven to myself without any doubt that I can go out and have a good time not drinking. i do realize that I am not as loud and a bit more reserved but, that is to be expected. I also challenged myself to go to a bar and have just one drink and chill and leave. This task was much harder but an ex-alcoholic told me that it is the truth mark of conquering a drinking problem.
That being said. i went out last night after work with co workers and bosses and bout a round of drinks of which I had a cranberry orange juice mix. At that time I told myself this is stupid being out spending money and not drinking. plus i found myself worrying about the people I have gotten absolutely smashed with multiple times going home by themselves. It's all very illogical. Being the sober one sucks at times.
All this is pointing to my just avoiding the bar altogether. It's a big step and it was not part of the plan but it may be the next rung in the ladder. the only issue with this is that it doesn't give me a gauge of in-the-environment self-control. However, it is a different measure of self-control not participating in the recreational activities around me in general. There is a hotel party, a fashion show, and a house party all happening this weekend as well as some pre- and post- Thanksgiving serious outings coming up. Am I to just simply avoid all of them? And unlike my normal life, I have a four-day-weekend coming up. (ugh that's a lot of hyphens)
Alas maybe I will just Bug In like a good prepper and finish some work early with this time. Whatever the case It'll be all over this blog!
-A
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