So here it is again. Since I've started this drinking strike I have had multiple relapses. But I have learned a lot about myself. I wish I was betting someone or had any real stake in this thing. It's nice to just have a reason. so I'm giving myself one.
I'm going to save all of my money for a car and a prepper lifestyle. I'm already spartan and closet survivalist so i'll just dial it up a notch. My goal to be a good husband and role model for the family I don't have yet overwhelms me.
I have noticed that even though I haven't stuck to a No Drinking philosophy I have drastically reduced my drinking and money spent on drinking. It has left me accomplishing more things. thinking longer and having a higher balance in my bank account. This binge drinking thing I go through is real , though. It is a disease. and it needs to be handled.
My Name is Ahmed and I'm an alcoholic.... Now what?
I have had some great experiences and a few good conversations that have humbled me in this journey and I hope to build on them. The biggest impact, for real, is trying to spend as little money as possible on a buzz. Which is actually a step forward, believe it or not.
I want to be good and I want a good woman and I think I need to fully conquer this demon to get there.
Let's be honest, It's time to get really honest!!
Endulge!
-A
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